The Intense Hunger to Create
I don't really know anyone that understands or feels the intense desire to create things that I do. Or at least, I don't know how they deal with the feeling.
I want to do so many things:
- make games
- make music
- draw
- paint
- make comics
- sing
- play an instrument
- write (fiction and nonfiction)
- cook
- probably more things
I don't think that I would be satisfied with being a specialist in one field. I want to see it all, and I want to do it all. I always have this sense that there is something that I want to do.
There is always the feeling that I have creative energy that needs to be channeled somewhere and to not do so makes me uncomfortable.
Sometimes I can't listen to music or play a game because it will just make me think about my own projects, which will make me drop what I was doing to go and work on them.
It's a feeling that I have to constantly reign in or else I feel like I'm Not Doing Enough or Wasting My Time. I don't have a good of a handle on it though, so a lot of time that I should be spending taking a break is time I spend feeling like I'm going to explode if I don't do something.
It's as exhausting as it is energizing. I want to do so much, and the potential of that excites me, but it also means that there is so much to do.